One rainy night...

he laid down on my bed while i was sleeping. I was waken by the slight movement but i didn't open my eyes. I knew it was him because of the familiar scent he wears.

He was watching me sleep... with my back towards him. I felt him come closer until i felt his warm breath at the back of my neck. He wrapped his arm around my waist as he brushed aside my hair that partly covered my face, and he whispered my name... letting his lips brush past my ear... and ever so lightly grazing my neck and shoulder.

"Honey," the words escaped from my lips in a whisper, my eyes still closed. His arm around my waist wrapped tighter, then i felt his warm hand reaching for my breasts... the back of my neck was showered with butterfly kisses.

I turned towards him to meet his kisses, which are now getting deeper and deeper. Moans escaped his lips with every kiss... his hand caressing my already bare back.

It was cold outside, but i was wiping beads of sweat from his forehead. The pouring rain drowned every moan and sigh... and the dark of night concealed every touching, groping, caressing of hands and bodies intertwined.

The coldness of the night was filled with warmth... and tenderness. And although it was still dark, the union of two souls in love somehow lit up the room and made life a little more worthwhile.

The rain finally stopped. Beside him, with my head on his chest, i was peacefully listening to his heartbeat, contented with his arms wrapped around me. He began singing my favorite song. More like whispering, but i could clearly hear it.

He ran his fingers through my hair, still whispering my song. I closed my eyes and went back to sleep, keeping a snapshot of the moment in my head. For i know he won't be there beside me when i wake up in the morning.

where art thou, guardian angel?

Here's your song, A.

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face
I can't replace

And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok, It's ok, It's ok

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cause you're my

You're my
My true love
My whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cause I'm here, for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay...

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

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Of rediscovery and missed opportunities

I'm stuck at home today. It's been raining hard when i woke up this morning and i'm not feeling well. The dark skies makes it feel like it's 6pm when it's only almost 4pm.

I would've been meeting VIPs at the Manila Peninsula today. I've already psyched myself up to it. But i'm here at home.

Yeah, sh*t happens.

The "Corporate Attire" that i was supposed to wear today.

Funny part is, that outfit wasn't the first thing i had in mind when i was picking which dress to wear. Last time i wore it was 6 years ago for a job interview. When i entered the government four years ago, i couldn't wear the dress anymore because we have an office uniform and i have gained weight (body fat!) in six months. The dress was hung at the farthest side of the closet, waiting for the time when i could wear it again. I didn't have the heart to give it away.

And then i stumbled upon it last night. Thought of trying it on. And it fit!

But then again.....

Oh well!

(sighs and publishes this post)

These are the days....

I'm on caffeine overdose and having an adrenalin rush. Bad combination because now i'm having palpitations.

I have a ton of paperwork to do and the bureaucracy is really not helping me achieve my target for the day.

And i still haven't organized my ideas for a production number for the higher boss' birthday.

And i've been depriving myself of precious sleep for two days already. Blame it on the caffeine. Hehe!


= = =


Yesterday at the choir practice, we were shocked by an SMS we received from a fellow choirmate that another member of ours got admitted at the hospital due to fractured bone when she tripped herself on duty (she works at the hospital).


So before going home, we paid her a visit and found out that she'd been at the hospital since Saturday. She's going home today, and will be wearing that cast for two months.

the gang with (still-smiley-despite-the-injury) Ate Ruby

(Choir)master Robin ransacked the goodies (bantay-salakay, hehe!)

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When i got home, Papa was running a high fever and was complaining of a splitting headache. So i gave him a spongebath (to lower his temperature), sprinkled a generous amount of baby powder on his back (to absorb perspiration) and gave him medicine.

I told my bro to keep watch but i couldn't sleep very well coz i couldn't help worrying about Papa. And when i was finally about to enter dreamland, i was abruptly awakened by bro, asking if he should wake dad up for another dose of medicine. I told him to let him sleep and just give him the medicine in the morning.

I had a hard time getting back to sleep after that. And i was late for work.

Not that i'm complaining. I'm worried, yes, but it's normal to worry (in my case, i panic most of the time) when a family member gets sick.

= = =

I'm already at the stage where i've forgiven dad about his shortcomings and our misunderstandings. And now that things have changed (and he has changed for the better), i just want to spend time with him and enjoy our time together, seeing him smile when i bring home something for him or when i tell a funny thing that happened to me at work.

Even if he's not very vocal about his feelings, I know deep inside that he loves us, his children. I love my dad. And i always pray that God would give him good health so he could enjoy more of what life has to offer.

And for the first time, I told Papa i love him. I think i'm gonna say it more often.

and those were the days...

It was just like any other working day yesterday. Not too heavy. But for unknown reasons (aside from the coffee i've been OD-ing on), after returning from another office, my heartbeat was pounding with no particular rhythm and i just felt like screaming my lungs out.

Later on i rationalized it was stress from the previous days manifesting itself just yesterday.

*sigh*

These days surely make me recall my out-of-town trips (official business or otherwise) and reminisce about the fun of just being out of the confines of my office cubicle!

Bataan with my choirmates

January and April 2007

one morning in Orani (still wearing my PJs).......and at the foot of the cross at Mt. Samat

Baguio City

Quezon Province (with officemates)

2005

After climbing the Grotto Doloroso (with 300 steps and a larger-than-life station of the cross)

Batangas

March 2007

taking a short break (nap?)

DTTB Monitoring 2005

need i say where?

Davao City

upon landing at the airport!

Not exactly out of town

my dancegroup in Quezon City......... and revisiting Fort Santiago

So-So Weekend

Missed my Saturday jog again. Oh well, things happen.

So, I just used the time to do my chores at home! Yup. I had a week's worth of laundry, some dusting and sweeping to do and volunteered to cook for lunch. But that's okay. I've been doing those things since i was little (and i'm still little, with a 5'2" height, hehehe!). And i had the time and energy yesterday, unlike the past weeks when i've been exhausted with work and i couldn't do anything else when i get home but eat a little and sleep.

It's a good thing that work is not heavy lately. I get to catch up on some other important things like chatting up with my cousins (we live in the same area but we rarely see each other coz of our busy schedules), attending choir practice (dami ko nang utang 'Bin! hehehe!), spending time with my family, and yes--household chores.


Sunday is my rest day. After attending mass, have lunch and just have an easy, lazy day. Pig out on some munchies while watching movies on DVD, or update my blog, maybe?--just so we can show Mom that we have a life even if it's not that interesting.

Hello Mother!

Oh wait, I have to work on a presentation. Well, more like a production number. It's for the boss' birthday on the 23rd.

Will be meeting with the other boss for approval. And then there's the rehearsal, the costumes, the set, lighting.... okay, i gotta go.

And i hope your weekend had been more interesting than mine.
;P

To those who are curious about the song Alamona (Alam mo na: a tagalog phrase meaning "you-know-what")

It's performed by a band who call themselves Endofcontracts (yup, it's spelled as one word). This indie music was used in the soundtrack of an indie movie titled Boso, starring Katya Santos and Jeffrey Quizon.

The band's album is said to be available in record stores nationwide. I'm goin' to check it out later.

Anyway, here's a rough translation of its lyrics:

I told you it's okay
I'm not the jealous type
and i know you've got someone else in your life
I won't be demanding to be squeezed
in your very tight schedule

And I'll always be here waiting
even if it means being your #2
just as long as i have....

your sweet kisses and you-know-what...
The way you touch my heart
makes up for the times you're not here
with me 'cause yoiu're with someone else

And when you wake up in the morning
you'll be leaving me again
'Cause you'll go back to your "real world"
and pretend that you're okay
and completely happy with him/her.

When will you be mine, all mine?

Your sweet kisses and you-know-what
To wake up in your arms with no one else between us
The touch of your hand and you-know-what
and the neverending affection that overwhelms me.

Pinoy Indie

Bro showed me this clip the other day and i instantly "fell in love" with it. Kaka-aliw! It's now one of my current faves!

It's Always There...

(If the music doesn't play, try clicking one of the videobox at the sidebar)

Typecast - Infatuation is always there

I understand what you’re trying to sayNo need to say it, I am leavingBut don’t walk away, just stay right thereI’ll fall and i’ll just look at you
I’ll just look at you
I don’t know why i always feel like thisIt’s hard to breathe when you’re aroundYour big blue eyes are drowning me to sleepThe space is tearing meOh stay please stay
Words are not importantSmiles are all i need from youThe yearning, it’s getting strongerI’m dumb, i hope you like me too
You’re two tables away, you could see me mezmerisedI want to talk to you but im so scaredBefore i never cared, infatuation’s never thereBut now it’s killing me
I really hate myselfI really hate myself

= = =

He'd been talking about leaving for quite some time and i've been hearing people talk about it as well. I just shrugged it off before. But now, just thinking about the people who are planning to leave makes me feel sad.

And empty.

But then again, here's a nice thought to ponder on.....




The leaves of the trees just keep falling...


Lesson?

It's not always right for us to keep someone forever. Most of the time, we have to let them go.

Yet, we are still standing.

Childhood Memory

Have you ever had a scary childhood memory? Have you ever had disturbing feelings evoked by a certain character from a cartoon movie you've seen when you were younger?


Call me weird. This is what freaked me out when i first saw it when i was a kid:

the Cheshire Cat from Alice in Wonderland

= = =

Yesterday, my sister happened to buy me a yellow (my favorite color) shirt with this design:

Yup, it's the same cat

She tossed me the shopping bag and said with a grin: "i know this freaked you out when you were young, that's why i bought this for you."

That's how my sister shows her love for me. ;P

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Sitting Pretty!

Once again, here's Ebony!

she likes to sit like this.
Really. It's not done with photoshop.

and she loves to sit on my favorite malong!

Hmm, when it says shapeshifter, does it mean i'm "plastic"? Hehehe.

Here's another quiz that manifests my bipolar characteristic.

What Your Handwriting Says About You

You are sometimes a very energetic person, but you are sometimes quite lethargic. You're moody, prone to ups and downs, and you don't have a lot of endurance. You range from very outgoing to very shy. You are a shapeshifter who is very versatile. You adapt well, and you look at things from many angles. You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others. You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well. You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart. You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous.

What Does Your Handwriting Say About You?

Thankful...

I've got a lot to be thankful for today.

= = =


For the first time in more than 10 years, I heard my dad said he's going to church. I was so moved by those words that it made me wanna go with him and even told my siblings that we should all go to show dad our support and have that one day for our family to do one thing together.


= = =


Dad won at the Barangay elections last October 29.

A couple of months back, he'd been telling us that he wants to run for a barangay position. It's kind of a family tradition since my late grandfather and two uncles had been active leaders/officials in our neighborhood. I, too, was not spared by the call of public service when i ran for Sangguniang Kabataan and held office from 1996-1999.


= = =


For a couple of months now, Papa had been 95% alcohol-free. We've been talking more and I feel closer to him now. I can feel that his mood has become lighter and his temper is not like before. He laughs more and smiles more nowadays.

Plus, Papa and Mama had been talking more lately through voice chat and they can see each other through webcam. Thanks to faster internet connection at home.


= = =


I have a good feeling that things are getting better.

And I am thankful.


= = =


My family has never been big on hugs or any display of affection. We seldom say "i love you" and seldom talk about usual family stuff at the dinner table.

But these are gonna change, i'm sure. I can feel it now.


= = =


I've always prayed for my dad and my mom.
I've always prayed for my family and loved ones.
And God has answered my prayers.
I am forever thankful.
God is good.


= = =


Now perhaps i could pray for myself this time.
;)

Gone for the Weekend: Subic!

I missed jogging yesterday.

Kuya Buddy (my balikbayan cousin from Vegas) will be going back to the States in a couple of days and he wanted to have some bonding time with the whole family (cousins, uncles and aunts) so he treated us all to an out of town trip. Destination: the beach at Subic.

Funny thing while we were on the road:

We were so careful not to violate the traffic rules enforced inside Subic so we waited patiently for the red light to go green. But it took a little longer and we were thinking the traffic light must be out of order. We kept looking at our back and saw the line behind us. Some of us were prodding ChoBobot (my uncle and designated driver) to go ahead anyway but after quite some time, (thank heavens!) the lights changed to green.

= = =

It was a warm day and the water was calm but we didn't dare take a dip yet as the sun was scorchingly hot. The boys opted to play, though!

the more athletic ones played beach football while artistic bro built sand castles

Late afternoon was our time to dip in the water which was starting to get cold. Did my own style of swimming--some pseudo-backstroke and some floating tricks here and there (uh, freestyle?) which i reckoned was equivalent to my Saturday jog. So i'm not a good swimmer. So what? ;P

Kuya Buddy was the center of attention when he fooled around in the water (like taking off his shorts and waving it in the air for all of us to see, and some other things i shouldn't be mentioning here) that got us all laughing and cheering for him.

Yup, we were a rowdy bunch. And we enjoyed every minute of it.

see the smiles in our faces?
Naah! But look at that backdrop!
Who wouldn't be captivated by the scene behind us?

Scary?

That's my bro!

;P

Pretty Little Seashells...

NOT!

They're actually seashell-shaped chocolates.

Nice to look at..... better to eat!

;)

Bittersweet Love

I liked this song when i heard it a couple of years back because of its beat and melody.

Who would've thought i'd find this song again? and now i can so relate to its lyrics.

You took my handYou showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right

I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong

I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no

I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong

They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Yeah yeah

I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew