Ebony with flashlight eyes
Oil pastel on illustration board
One summer's day at La Mesa Ecopark
Images that soothe me.
Seen (would you believe it?) inside the company compound not very far from the Child-Minding Center.
goofing around minutes before the mass..............and the choirmaster/guitarist/tenor-bass
Girlfriends... post-movie
(as always, i'm the one not in the picture, hehehe!)
Okay, I'm only human. I cry when i'm hurt or very sad and lonely.
Maybe i need some more time to wallow in my miserable state before i could have the strength to pick myself up. I'm usually like that.
So one more time... let's stroke the guy's ego for a bit.
SPOILED (Joss Stone)
I kinda thought that i'd be better off by myself
I've never been so wrong before
You made it impossible for me to ever love somebody else
And now i don't know what i left you for
See i thought that i could replace you
He can't love me the way you do
Til now i never knew baby
I'm spoiled
By your love boy
No matter how i try to change my mind
What's the point it's just a waste of time
I'm spoiled by your touch boy
The love you give is just too hard to fight
Don't want to live without you in my life
I'm spoiled
I tried to tell myself that i'd be over you in a week or two
But baby that was 'bout a year ago
I've never seen the word love so personified
as I do with you
And that is why i just can't let go
And i would only be fooling myself
if i tried to believe there's room
for someone else in my heart
There ain't no way i'm getting over you
I don't know what i've been trying to prove
I'm hopeless, helpless when it comes to you
I'm spoiled by your love boy
No matter how i try to change my mind
What's the point it's just a waste of time
I'm spoiled by your touch, boy
The love you give is just too hard to fight
Don't wanna live without you in my life
I'm spoiled.
= = =
After this... I'm still alive and I'm gonna be stronger.
I. am. Rocktsik.
;)
Somehow, i find comfort from this song...
BOYS DON'T CRY (The Cure)
I would say i'm sorry
if i thought that it would change your mind
but i know that this time
i have said too much
been too unkind
I try to laugh about it
cover it all up with lies
I try to laugh about it
hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry
I would break down at your feet
and beg forgiveness plead with you
but i know that it's too late
and now there's nothing i can do
So i try to laugh about it
cover it all up with lies
I try to laugh about it
hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry
I would tell you that i loved you
if i thought that you would stay
But i know that it's no use
that you've already gone away
Misjudged your limits
Pushed you too far
Took you for granted
I thought that you needed me more, more, more
Now I would do most anything
to get you back by my side
But i just keep on laughing
hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry
I'm not kidding.
is this a breakup song or what?
THE BOSTON DRAMA
Standard pickup lines that seem to wreck your bones
Can this be a sequel of my dying hope?
You're chasing down a neverending make believe
You're a perfect match of consistency
Will you come back in a heartbeat?
Don't be confused of what a great thing we could be
Take a walk at the same street
Can you tell me how Boston is like without me?
Your image is stamped beneath the insides of my heart
Now you're gone, I don't know where to start
The evidence is showing like a stable apprehension
You're the only one who's apt this affection
Will you come back in a heartbeat?
Don't be confused of what a great thing we could be
Take a walk at the same street
Can you tell me how Boston is like without me?
And thought I was in China, right?
Or maybe not. I could've been in the US of A where the beer is being exported too.
But I wasn't.
I was actually still in my dear old Manila--at Superbowl of China, celebrating with my choirmates on our fourth year of being a group. My third year actually.
So, there! No more mystery.
;)
seriously learning
seriously having fun!
we didn't just pose beside that pool ;)
photo op in the elevator
I got this wedge sandal for 230Php
after the games last June
a REALLY BIG matchstick!
;P
= = =
Congratulations to my bro and the rest of the band Wet-Fox for winning last night's Battle of the Bands in their school.
They got to do front-act for Chicosci and 6CycleMind.
By the way, kiddo bro is the band's drummer.
Mana sa ate. Hehehe!
Kinda mixed up right now. In the middle of a whirlwind of emotions - at one point happiness (still from my birthday), then grief (for lolo's death), frustration, relief.
But one thing is for sure: that whatever phase we are in, whatever we are facing right now, the show must go on.
Life goes on.
Iza Calzado
Aga Muhlach
my uncle
the person 'responsible' for the 'grand celebration' yesterday ;)
pardon for the blurry image. my eight-year old cousin shot the pic.
; )
And so the party's over.
Blame me for not having snaps of the preparation coz i woke up rather late. After all, it was my birthday and i can pretty much do as i please. Still i wasn't able to take pics while the party's on because i was busy preparing the drinks.
The grand celebration i was talking about wasn't solely mine. As i've mentioned earlier, my uncle and i share the same birthday. The party was mainly his (coz he's got more moolah, hehe!) because it was also his despedida party (he works overseas).
The usual setup when my uncle's in the country on our birthday: he takes care of most of the stuff (like food for lunch and alcoholic drinks by the afternoon) while i share some in my own little way. Usually, it's dad who cooks up my contribution for the food (spaghetti for snacks or a beef dish). For this year, Papa whipped up his new specialty while I came up with my own version of Mindoro Sling (the drink you should try when you're in Puerto Galera) to which my cousin was a willing taster.
Unfortunately my concoction wasn't as smooth as the original version. It gave me a big headache unlike my previous Mindoro Sling experience back in Puerto two months ago.
*sigh*
I miss the beach again. 'twas such a blast. But more of that on my next post.
Ta-tah!
minus the menacing face. Heheh!
don't you think the candles are kinda big for the cakes?
After all is said and done--the practice over and the food eaten--there were still paperworks to attend to. I had to stay a little bit more at the office and finally went home by 7pm.
= = =Spanish Chicken with Chorizo
Hours ago, J texted me that he wouldn't be able to come to the office to accompany me home. I know he wouldn't let me walk in flooded streets. Or he would not let me walk alone if we really can't help walking in it.
But my superman's got fever. So I walked by myself.
(Tita died July last year. We had her babang-luksa yesterday)
= = =
Now why would I be writing about death and dying?
Well, for one, we had just commemorated my aunt's death anniversary yesterday. Here in the Philippines, we have this custom we call babang-luksa. Literally, it means we stop mourning a year after the death of a loved one or family member. Elderly women lead the prayers, then lunch or snacks are served depending on the time of the day the family preferred the ritual done.
After I had my snack, I went to St. Lazarus Shrine for the anticipated mass. Afterwhich the choirmaster told us that we'll be singing for a funeral mass nearby which will be officiated by our parish priest.
On my first year of being a church choir member, I was usually making up excuses not to come with the choir to sing on funeral mass. The thing is, even if I am not related to the departed, seeing the family members left behind mourning makes me cry so easily. It took some time before I could go with the choir and be able to concentrate on singing rather that absorbing the mourners' loss and having a sob fit. Well that's how weird I am.
The homily went on like: we should not view death as an enemy and we should not be afraid of death.
I once read from a book by Leo Buscaglia that those who scream loudest from their deathbeds are those who have not lived fully. Perhaps they need to reconcile with other people--to forgive or ask forgiveness themselves. Perhaps they are worried about those people they'd be leaving behind. Or perhaps they can't let go yet. The priest said we have to accept that we all die. Una-una nga lang.
It is often said that life is short so we should enjoy every moment of it. Savor every minute, every breath we take. After seeing quite a number of deaths (family members and those I know of) I am now consciously taking steps in enjoying this life God has given me. I may slack off once in a while, getting contented with living in the sidelines. But I constantly push myself to go out there, dive in the middle and play an active part in this big stage we are in. I may not land the lead role, but at least I tried. Better than nothing, isn't it?
No matter what role we play in life, may we always give it our best shot. I constantly remind myself those things whenever I see myself backsliding. I can say I am a work in progress.
Here's a nice thing to ponder on:
"When you were born, you cried and the world rejoiced. Live your life in such a way that when you die, the world cries and you rejoice." -- Author unknown
Have a good day everyone and may we all live a full life.
Let's settle this once and for all...
| You Are An Intro-Extrovert! |
Sometimes you're social - sometimes you're shy You've got a bit of an Introvert / Extrovert split going on You enjoy all sorts of situations. Parties, small groups, and alone time. Too much of one, and you'll long for the other. You need variety! Chances are, you've got both serious and fun friends - and they don't get along. |